Friday, February 24, 2006
im really tired.just cos of a grp of irresponsible and giggly sec2s our proposal gets rejected w/o much thought.
the projects i could still tolerate, their deadlines are all over.
the true passion, true love, you just had to extinguish it with a 'no'.
im not willing to spend time on sth im not committed to.
i dun wanna waste another year and half swearing and cursing at RS.
all i want is to find out what i wanna find out.
if it were my topic, i willingly give up my sleep for it.
staring at u gives me strength; but it is too shortlived.
12:41 PM
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
bloody shit.i am damn pissed.
spent 2+ hrs in front of my laptop trying to burn dad's cds.
and i even deleted my wonderful bitcomet program just to free space for the burning.
AND IT STILL DIDNT WORK.
oh my fucking shit i cant do a thing right.
all i wanna do is slack.
and all i did was slack.
now i have to dl all my stuff again, and box DOESNT LOAD.
fuck it! wth is wrong with MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
retribution yes. yes i know.
im really sorry.
sorry to qi, sorry to lena, sorry to hua, sorry to jess, sorry to dad, mum, jie, gor.
sorry to teo, sorry to wanchee.
sorry everyone.
i just cant do it.
im still struggling, yes, but it doesnt work anymore.
im sorry.
4:27 PM
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
im in depression once again.my dad's unwell. he went to hospital in the wee morning and i didnt even know.
that added on to my misery.
along with my turn with no flip, my letter with no reply, my desire with no end, the smile that never belonged to me, the first attempt with no recognition.
i was comfortable to snuggle in 201 every morning last year. now my legs have to work extra hard.
somebody get me brokeback mountain tix.
6:59 AM
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
im in a weird mood.maybe it's my ankle, maybe it's my knee, maybe it's somebody you know, maybe it's somebdy you don't know.
feel like taking rollercoasters now.
tired, sleepy, racked, pissed, fat, weak.
fuck it.
1:05 PM
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