i feel baddddd abt everything.

i sincerely apologise to evrything. evryone.

Ready-to-argue List

1. JK - freak, she better get lost by next year. wth. they can anyhow book de meh? well, no u cant, and im not just going to nod and go 'sorry sorry'.
2. SA - very shitty. better kep out of her way. see her, run. if not. try to look like i didnt see her.

To be updated...(most probably.)

Impressed-loved-admired-grateful-to List

1. Ms Kong! - so reasonable, helpful, kind. i feel kinda guilty for doing so bad in chinese. wonder if i can use her words to defend myself...
2. Uncle Lim! - nicenicenice (: need i say more?
3. Mr Ng! - melodious voice! ahahahahaha. and he's really willing to help when u need help (provided you can find him) i cannot STAND math lessons w/o him!!!
4. Teo! - (: can u imagine a 90 kg fatty doing somersaults and twists that we cant do?

to be updated...(maybe not.)

ah the disgusts of the day.

it is all too depressing.

my desktop conked out too. hmm..but i must say i felt good to be able to actually open up the cpu and fidget with some of the gadgets. (:

but overall im still fucking pissed with myself.

did a few levels of totallytricky and thewicked ON MY OWN...but im stuck once again, unfortunately (: gonna pester joyce again tmr.

english tmr. freak. the mind-sweating 2 hrs AGAIN.
i cant take the stress alr. pls, friday, pls come quickly...


your tiny gesture made it less painful.
im sorry i couldnt make it high up in your books.

i hate superglue.

i think the inventors of superglue are either really lazy or they don't use their product themselves.

hello? they cant even develop a effective and doesnt-spill-superglue-over-you tube for the superglue! BECAUSE, when u finished using it, u have to sort of suck the superglue back from the long mouth into the tube itself, AND, unless it's the first time u are using this tube of superglue, THAT is almost impossible to do so without spilling some on your finger(s, most probably). and if u choose to leave the superglue in the mouth without sucking it back (and getting your fingers glued), it will result to being the LAST time u ever use that tube of superglue.

i mean, yeah it's cool, it sticks to anything, but hey, the packaging really sucks. i'm talking abt those that have the stupid long mouth. walau eh. next time im gonna buy those that dun have it. eww.

i was spending like 10 minutes scraping off the hardened layer of glue from my fingers? when the superglue clearly says "10 secs' work only"

anyway, i forgot to mention that i met ivy in the j8 toilet on friday (:

FRIDAY THE 19TH

DAVINCI CODE! wahahahahahahaha. i tink my sis is a genius. but nvm, i shall not blog abt it lest i get sued or sth. -rolls eyes- anw, it was SUPERB. at least i think so. i love silas! he's like exactly how he's supposed to be, PLUS, he has a nice figure, a nice ass above all (x i cant believe he actually had to bleach his WHOLE BODY to look albino. his contacts should be red and not blue, but ahwell. they cut quite alot of details from the book, but it's a movie la... hmm. was teabing dumbledore? my sis thought so...but when she brought it up after the movie i've had forgotten how his face looked like alr. ah....paul betteny, im the lookout for you now (plus your ass :P)

pictures of silas!















SATURDAY THE 20TH

training!!!!!!! wooo. nice trng. conditioning was moderate and pretty ok. i jumped super high today (even though my front pike was screwed due to unknown some reason), and i did a nice lifted backsomer (: and then, the first attempted front-somer-twist failed horribly and i fell. a bit of chest-concussion (urh?) but i was up and bouncing very soon. after that i did on the soft tramp instead and got teo to call out for me. SUCCESS! so continued to heighten my adrenaline level, when i suddenly rmbed!

i wanted to learn diveroll! okay. so i asked teo. he said sth along the lines of very diff to teach..it's up to ur feeling, your guts and your timing..then he ask me whether i got the guts then of course i went "I GOT GUTS!" so he say try la. so i tried. -.- one word: err.

i dunno what to do and ended up doing a front pike. so he demostrated, and after that i ming bai liao. so i did! i went higher and higher and finally i landed nicely on my back. (: ooooo~the feeling .... i dunno how to describe.. the splitsecond skipping of the heart and another splitsecond as u stare right at the tramp, upsidedown with your body in the dive-into-swimming-pool-headfirst position. then poomp, u land on ur back! SO DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....felt so proud of myself cos i could do what that boastful (but great at tramping) guowen can (x HAH. if only he comes and visit teo. then i can wipe that stupid 眼神 he always seems to have even when i know he's trying to help us (me) improve right off his...uh.....eyes.

oh and an important thing to note: CLARA COMPLIMENTED ME! that's like wow? lol. i shall now comment on how nice she looks when she was doing the backwhip then. nice streamlined shape she makes (: of course, im saying it here cos she doesnt read my blog (i hope).

yay i love to tramp after comps!

yippee! the week has finally turned for the better today! (x

omg. i love catherine of kimarie.

despite my shitty requests which even i didnt really think made sense, and my diff-to-tame-hair, she actually cut it exactly- no, i mean EVEN BETTER than what i expected. she left long sideburns which i was skeptical abt, but it turned out FANTASTIC.

-leaps around in joy-

she even styled it nicely for me. so im going to sleep in the gel or oil or wtv she used. xDDDDDDD

yesyesyesyesyes!!!

and guess what, that plus an out-of-the-world-hairwash-cum-massage, it all cost....



$7.50! yes! SING DOLLARS! (x

im so lucky lucky lucky lucky~~

updated:
wanted to load pics but was pissed off by the stupid photo editing program.
and my dad's negative comment.
shitness.

updated again:
fine fine. just one darkish one with only half my face. im shall try not to let my good mood run away.

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people.
At the end, tag at least 5 people.

1. Jessica
2. Wanlin
3. Shihua
4. Jiacong
5. Lee Qi
6. Shermine
7. Shinyi
8. Fiona
9. Teo (:
10. Tay Zhi Yong! (x
11. Jason Ng! (x
12. Nicholas
13. Gabriel
14. Fiona koi
15. Aline
16. Lena (i almost forgot! -.-)
17. JB <3
18. Lee Young Ae
19. Min Jeong Ho (x
20. uh...joyce?

Questions:

1. How did you meet 14? Japan Immersion 23rd batch 2005!!!

2. What would you do if you've never met 1? i wont have the motivation to do conditioning, wont have anybody to crack stupid jokes with (cos u see, with her, i dun have the pressure to crack smart jokes :P hhahahaha kidding jess!)

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! OMG IM CRYING IN LAUGHTER.

4. Did you ever like 19? OF COURSE!

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? er...

6. Describe 3. chiobu!!! very cute (even tho i try not to admit it :P) fellow spastic. and fellow shortie -.-

7. Do you think 8 is attractive? YES HER EYES ARE HUMUNGOUS. (prays that she doesnt read this :P)

8. Tell me something about 7. She's my fellow tramper! eq higher than me! and HER EYES!! my tcher thot we were related (nono impossible. such an insult to me) isit cos u 2 stay in the same area HARH?

9. Do you know any of 12's family? uh..not reli. but i saw his family before. and i sort of talked to his bro over the phone.

10. What is 9's favourite? HAHA. FOOD!!

11. What would you do when 18 confesses that he/she likes you? are u kidding? pls, take a look at my blog. i mean a CLOSE look.

12. What language(s) does 15 speak? umm english, chinese, jap.

13. Who is 9 going out with? er. that fatty's MARRIED with 3 sons.

14. How old is 16 now? same as me! 15!

15. When was the last time you talked to 13? hmmm...thats a very good question...

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer? HOCC!

17. Would you ever date 4? ahahahahahaha. maybe...

18. Would you ever date 7? no way! my crap doesnt fit her crap! rofl.

19. Is 5 single? uh yes. unless she's been HIDING THINGS FROM ME.

20. What is 10's last name? TAY ZHIYONG!!!! (x uh. sorry. i mean Zhi Yong.

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? OMG IM LAUGHING TO TEARS AGAIN. hell, he's my maths tcher who's married. (:

22. What school does 3 go to? rgs! same class as me sumore (:

23. Where does 6 live? uh. not sure. AH I KNOW! NEAR HER CHURCH! -smug grin-

24. What is your favourite thing about 5? she's SO MANLY! but then SO SEXY in her swimming costume (x ahahahaha...im anticipating her roundhouse punch annytime!

Who should do this next!

1) huahua
2) jessica
3) aline
4) yuhung
5) gabu

hah! i bet they wont do cos they arent reading this!

had a great training! well...ok..the backsomers were too boring, and the conditioning was freaking shit for me.

BUT, the nasi briyani was FUNNNNNNN. i mean, like

FUN!!!!!!

yesh. i nearly killed charlene but it felt OUTTA THE WORLD!!!!!

free adrenaline supply!

oooo my maggi mee is done! KIMCHI MAGGI MEE!!

i love korea.

Tomboy Test from lena's blog ^^ (k, i better score better for this...)

[x] you own a jersey
[x] you like being sweaty
[ ] you love mud
[ ] you play more than 1 sport for fun
[x] you hate pink
[x] you love hoodies and jeans
[x] pranks are fun
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[ ] its funny when people get hurt

Total = 5

[x] shopping is a torture
[ ] pulling heads off dolls isnt creepy, it's fun
[ ] you dont cry
[ ] sad movies suck
[x] painting your nails is weird/stupid
[x] you own a gameboy
[ ] you own a ps2 (used to)
[ ] you own an xbox
[ ] you own a gamecube (used to)
[x] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you own a ps

Total =4

[x] you used to be obsessed with power rangers
[ ] you watch sports center
[ ] sports on tv are awesome
[ ] gorey movies are the best
[ ] you arent scared of anything
[ ] you take part in "male bonding"
[ ] you only go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball caps
[ ] you aren't sensitive
[x] no pain no gain

Total = 3

[x] you like going to basketball games
[x] night games rock
[ ] spiders and bugs are cool
[x] you like to freak out your sister or brother
[x] you used to or do collect baseball cards
[x] saggy pants are cool
[ ] you get sports illustrated/other sports magazine
[x] fire is cool
[x] you don't babysit
[x] you're immature

Total = 8

[ ] it's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green black red or blue are your favorite color(s)
[ ] romantic comedies are boring
[x] you dont care about watching your weight
[x] you hate dressing up
[ ] you dont care about your hair
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think
[ ] you're the one who asks a guy/girl out not the other way around
[x] climbing is fun
[ ] contact sports like football are fun

Total = 5

Total= 25!

wow. am i satisfied? no way.

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=grill

go to there. this reduces my guilt.

oooo. thx to xiaxue.

Vesak Day: Freeing of animals becomes Killing of animals

i cant describe the absolute frustration when i heard the news.

can't these ppl THINK? hello where are you? concrete jungle, drains, reservoirs. not the amazon forest. i mean, yeah i freed a catfish into the reservoir (SHHH) before, but thats with the knowledge that the bloody creature could eat any shit, and literally shit even. i know, i know...i still cant free myself from the crime.

pls forgive me. im NEVER EVER going to keep a pet anymore. of course i have my turtles still but im not going to get anymore. i think i dont even deserve a place in hell (not that i believe in hell) for the lives i have destryed, one way or another.

im irritated with myself cos i dun feel anger. i am supposed to feel anger, dammit.

the many creatures i have brought death upon. i have always been guilty, am always sorry. so i took to looking at petshops and aquariums and king fiddlefins. pets, ALIVE and WELL pets for the record, are miracles to me. just had to let me learn the lesson after so many turtles and fishes.

i changed. i tried to amend, tried to give it back.

i refused to down one single piece of sharksfin. but it was not enough, i know. i ate chicken, i ate salmon. i ate meat. i mean i EAT meat. i know im a bloody liar who cant follow what she wants.

i promise i will devote more of my diet to fruits and ice cream and instant noodles (notice there are no veggies?). pls, forgive me.

R.I.P, my dear ex-pets.

let me refine my stand.

when i cursed the matter, i wasnt cursing the people involved.

i was cursing the whole hooha and the fact that we have to retake the bloody test again, which, i learnt today, will NOT be easier to do. unless you count "more manageable" as "easier".

and i was feeling ok liao...after our english teacher sought our understanding.

then she had to add:

"Please don't go spread to all your friends from other schools (or to the rest of the school too, she said earlier), it's nothing big about this." or something along these lines.

that got me pissed again.

well, if it's a mistake, a most bu-ying-gai-kinda mistake, i do not see why we have to keep it under the folds wraps (dammit my english sucks). of course, i know she didnt mean it that way, but it does give me the impression, however vague, that if the blunder was not a blunder but a glorifying thing...no teacher will go "oh, it's just a small accomplishment, please don't go spread to all your friends in other schools."

like wtf?

this is what i bloody hate abt this school.

you dun like it, fine. dun act like you like it and WOW, bask and soak in the glory we bring and give an "oh-yeah-these-are-my-girls" kinda aura.

okay. that's rather out of track but wtv. im agitated, and so there.

am i making sense? i hope i am, cos i cant think straight when im angry.

ps: i owe an apology to mel. sorry for screaming at you. and chen, sorry for screaming at you as well. ahh....i must control my stupid, overflowing mouth.

hail the rectifying rashes of my ankle!

yesh. it's probably a good sign that it's healing on its own.

but freak, it itches like -TEARS AT HAIR- -TREMBLES AS I WHISTLE DAE JANG GEUM-

oh yes.

i love dae jang geum!!!!!! <3

ah. the urgent-ness of nature's calls.

we have to retake our english SA.

ok. first let me begin by informing u that i am right now very calm and in no condition that may render my opinions unreasonable or based on anger.





FUCK.

not to mention how some teacher (mind you, a teacher of rgs, which is supposedly the top school of spore, and no, this is not a boast.) ACCIDENTLY released the papers before the common test day. yah, i ACCIDENTLY had a slip of paper with maths formulas and chemical equations, so let's get the whole cohort to retake the test again! an easier one somemore so no one should complain! it's for the sake of the school's stand in integrity and fainess! alrite i know i just mentioned it but wtv.

u gonna argue with me that because u cant trace who read the papers and who didnt, so EVERYONE has to take another (easier!) test along with those ppl?! look, i've got nothing against those people or the teacher(s?), but hello? are these teachers some vending machines which give out the papers and then basically have NO IMPRESSION, NO MEMORY of who they gave it to?


and this has nothing to do with our learning process. so no, it wasnt an effective roundabout to shake us off.

yes, i agree that those ppl could have spread the contents around. but i assure u, the ppl are mainly made up of three kinds. one, those who really uphold integrity and try their best to forget it (ok, nobody's THAT angelic. but at least they wont spread the word.) two, those who cant even rmb enough to spread the word properly. and three, they can rmb the contents, but NO, i'm not going to share it with my friend-who-will-do-as-well-and-maybe-even-better-than-me (even though i wont understand why are u "friends" in the first place).

all these 3 kinds of ppl, plus (or overlapping) those whom the teacher can pinpoint out, i estimate that there wont be more than what...5 ppl who knows abt the test?

and these 5 ppl, assholes, would suffer from their guilty conscience forever and sob when they get a 4.0 grade for their english compre SA.



but no! because we have to uphold the integrity and fairness in our school, we have decided to have all of you to take a retest!

should i mention that the now-void scripts will not be marked, and the papers are all wasted?
and the ink?
and the nerves?
the brain cells which died from that crazy 1 hour and 50 mins?
maybe not.

4 tests in a week. 6 for french students.

are you trying to kill us?

but of course, for intergrity and fairness, we will have no opinion about this matter except a few curses and whines here and there.

this is sth really cool i read on xiaxue's blog. yes, i read her blog. yes, i like her blog. yes, i support her.

open quote mark!

Question 1:If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2:It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three candidates.

Candidate A.Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologist. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B.He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate CHe is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be your choice? Decide first... no peeking, then scroll down for the response..........


















Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion question: If you said YES, you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone.Never be afraid to try something new.

Remember: Amateurs...built the ark.
Professionals...built the Titanic

close quote mark!

-jumps up and cheers claps in agreement-

-weak laugh-

i sprained my ankle...yep! AGAIN!

and i did it most stupidly. i was hopping around in joy and the next moment the familiar pain shot into my nervous system. oh my. im really sorry for scaring all of u there. didnt tell teo cos if not he nagnagnag again. whoops.

but this time, i can still walk properly (i escaped the laser-scanning eyes of teo, what did u expect?) and i didnt cry. probably cos there wasnt any reason to cry this time.

ohwell. was listening to the rain pour down after my shower and had this bizzare train of thoughts:

freak rain > earth is being ruined by us > scary how everyone contributes to it > the earth is so big somemore > hmm > HMMMM > if the universe is indefinitely big > maybe the smallest particle aint the atom! > maybe sth smaller, then sth smaller, then sth even smaller... > maybe it'll be named paulom after its discoverer!

ok. the last one was added now. hehe.

i love icecream.





did i mention i love icecream?




icecream is the best snack ever.

i love icecream.





oh before u go, let me tell u sth i just discovered!



im addicted to icecream!

here i am, after surviving the horrible english and social studies SAs!!!!

the joy. ahh. am going to have a good game of mahjong before going training. (:

here i am again...

freak la. tmr's physics test and what am i doing??
surfing the fc and forum...

well. only good thing is i did a compre! (:

ohwell.

going to eat dinner now. -chirps-

There are 3 kinds of people: those who can count and those who can't.

ahhhh..

the wonderous aftereffects of doing sth nice.

im officially a fan of c&k! (: i was rather against it at first, but i realised the happiness of being in that world.

haii. dunno what i doing for mugging lor. i've just finished typing out rs minutes...before that i read thru my physics notes (glanced thru, more like). but i spent a good part of the day slacking on the comp.

didnt touch my jap script (well, except when i picked it up to put into my bag), didnt learn anything surprisingly new that may or may not help me in the tests coming up. all i did was gorge myself with choco-mint ice cream (yum yum, and i think im getting addicted oops), sing while i ate my lunch, and surfed the stupid net for an interesting blog that has been updated and i havent read yet.

starting to feel guilty cos my mum seems to believe that im doing work now cos im sitting at the comp typing furiously with a serious and concentrating-dun-even-suspect-that-i-am-slacking expression. haii. think i'll go do my english compre.

Education doesn't change life much. It just lifts trouble to a higher plane of regard. - Robert Frost

this is with regards to colinkero's negative commenters as well as the brokeback mountain notice on the gb board in school. there is no offence meant towards any religion or person. dun read this entry if u would prefer to stay with the happy and sweet and basically so-so pauline lee.

on hindsight with regards to my latest comment rebutting some anti-gay person, i think i should not have used the murderer analogy cos its inaccurate. i realised this when i thought back pissingly at the gb notice.

now, murderer's beliefs or actions are not right, because they harm others. this is the same for ppl who abort. philosophical, but basically still kills lives.

on the OTHER hand, gays are abt gays. themselves. their own business. the world population is going over the limit so it doesnt really have adverse effects on the humanrace anyway.

for those commenters, it's really pointless and i think they are just going to make more ppl pissed. i mean, their reasoning isnt even sound! see the anatomy comment. see the animal homosexuality comment.

i really respect ur religion, ur belief. dont try to change what i think, what i feel, cos u cant and i wont. this applies to this stupid thing abt vulgarities too. yes, it reflects how UNSOPHISTICATED i am, i am doing it on my blog, my space. even if its a public space. why? because i am not directing it to anyone. mebbe to myself. i have cursed at ppl before, but that was when i was still stupid (to let them catch me doing it). even if i do swear at someone, do u see me TYPE OUT HIS/HER name? im polite when i need to be. im casual when i can be. and im obscene and rude and dirty-mouthed when i can, when i want to, when i need to. so there. point made. for those whom have been offended by my curses, an apology.

now abt things me and my friend want to say to each other or do to each other. of course it's mutual right? since so, u shouldnt care wat we say to each other, or what we do in that photo, so long its us and u are not affected. if u get extremely agitated and trembly from it, then GO AWAY. this is abt us, not u.

then comes the prob of ppl using us to justify their actions. now YOU are the one who got into trouble. YOU are the one who did all those things. not us. we have been doing it for so long, never lost a single strand of hair, and there u go, telling the governor that 'oh, those 2 freaks say mushy things to each other, so can i!' wtf?! you're doing it with sb who doesnt want to. so dun come and give us trouble when the governor come and tells us off for doing sth for ourselves. it's our blogs, our frenster, our space. a space where we can do what we like because it is a space where u can choose not to enter. so dun think u are right just cos u choose to enter our zone. and dun think u can get the same consequences as us. no u wunt, because u are modifying what we're doing.

joe dallas (if i rmb correctly) said in the gb notice that brokeback was similar to the abortion issue. well, it isnt. if u are homophobic, then stay away from gays. u dun go bashing up gays and then justify ur action cos u are 'removing evil from earth'. the abortion thing is like at the other end of the spectrum. a life, innocent life is destroyed. ok, im fine if u feel like punching this particular woman who aborted or sth. its like hanging a man for murder. thats ok. thats retribution. but u dun go 'burn u faggots' and expect us to be quiet abt it.

if it is reli wrong, the one in charge of punishing will do it. not YOU. just cos u are a policeman doesnt mean u can go fire a gun at every murderer or rapist or wtv crap. it the same.

the argument is reli pointless, but if u guys insist, u're just gonna lose our respect for u, and even worse, lose our respect for ur religion. that's not going to be fair to the reli nice and kind ppl who are also of that religion. cos those ppl are reli nice and sweet.

so stop preaching to us. or 'reason with the word of -insert name of ur god-', as one commenter insisted. gb notice, fine, it's ur board, i've got nth to say except my opinions. but on their blog, in their lives? u've got no right to say all these and expect us to nod our head obediently and 'reflect' on our 'disgusting beliefs'.

period.

again, i highlight that this is my opinion with all the evidence i could find. i support racial and religious harmony and of course, harmony of that aspect. i reli want to keep the balance. 井水不犯河水, OKAY?

crap. i type finish liao then i freaking navigated away from the page. curses.

ok im not crying.

must say thanks and a BIG BIG sorry to jess and qi. jess escorted me for almost 2 rounds and qi 1, but 我就是不争气 ... sorry sorry sorry > <

my shin pain like hell. cant even squat properly to piss. feel like shit. failure. so what if i have packs.

i tink im such a disgrace for gym. where got gymnast run until so shit one.

everything i hope for fails, and then the things i dun care as much come out near-perfect. i hate 15. i knew after my lucky 14, my life be be downhill.

WOOOO! have been talking with jess and lena abt packs, and i unknowingly felt my stomach area during my shower.
AND GUESS WHAT?

I'VE GOT 2 PACKS!!!!!

i mean REALLY. even when i relax, i can FEEL THEM THERE! yep! they cant be seen, no, but THEY ARE THERE ALRIGHT!

now im starting to forgive teo! (x JESS! DO MORE PITSIDE SITUPS WITH ME OKAY? then we'll get nice packs that'll last us years after we quit gym :)))))))

oh yes, lena's hair is CUTE!!!! im serious! swear! tighten my packs! PROMISE! it's really cool (: and no worries it'll grow to the length u'd prefer. anw, mrs cheriyan is really nice! she practically thought out the structure for us and GAVE US THE HOMOSEXUAL OPTION! how NICE is that? needless to say we chose that one.

oh yes. and lastly, just to mention the one of the flaws of my day, I HATE YOU FOR DOING THAT.

Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt.
-Abraham Lincoln