Vesak Day: Freeing of animals becomes Killing of animals

i cant describe the absolute frustration when i heard the news.

can't these ppl THINK? hello where are you? concrete jungle, drains, reservoirs. not the amazon forest. i mean, yeah i freed a catfish into the reservoir (SHHH) before, but thats with the knowledge that the bloody creature could eat any shit, and literally shit even. i know, i know...i still cant free myself from the crime.

pls forgive me. im NEVER EVER going to keep a pet anymore. of course i have my turtles still but im not going to get anymore. i think i dont even deserve a place in hell (not that i believe in hell) for the lives i have destryed, one way or another.

im irritated with myself cos i dun feel anger. i am supposed to feel anger, dammit.

the many creatures i have brought death upon. i have always been guilty, am always sorry. so i took to looking at petshops and aquariums and king fiddlefins. pets, ALIVE and WELL pets for the record, are miracles to me. just had to let me learn the lesson after so many turtles and fishes.

i changed. i tried to amend, tried to give it back.

i refused to down one single piece of sharksfin. but it was not enough, i know. i ate chicken, i ate salmon. i ate meat. i mean i EAT meat. i know im a bloody liar who cant follow what she wants.

i promise i will devote more of my diet to fruits and ice cream and instant noodles (notice there are no veggies?). pls, forgive me.

R.I.P, my dear ex-pets.