This week has been hellava hectic one for me. A big thanks to jess, who not only gave loads of encouragement, but also 3 whole delicious chewy yummy healthy snack bars to me. LOVE YOU JESS!

I love the times when teo would tell us stories while we do conditioning. Huihui and juee came for training today, and he was chatting with us. I still cant tramp cos my knee still hurts a little. But well, I guess I have no need to rush.

And you. Im really disappointed by you lor. Your promises are still up in public for the world to see; your display pictures still hold the memories; but you just never kept your promises. Not to me, at least. I dread meeting you, dread the lack of the emotion once alive in your eyes when you see me, dread the lack of connection and the reluctance of you to make any connection. The workload has kept this from my thoughts most of the time, but now, I recall the greetings you make to me, the responses you make to me, the lack of eye-contact, the lack of a joke in your criticisms…im hurt. I never expected it to last between us, but your promises gave me hope. Even the rationality in me didn’t prepare me for such a sudden change in you. Is it something I did? Or sth I didn’t? or were you so emotionally challenged by other things, emotionally attracted by some other person, that I don’t seem even the slightest important anymore?

I didn’t plan on crying. But the memory of us…