i have just rekindled my sadness about her.

i think more than half of the movie ticket butts i have, you have them too.

i think the joke we used to share, the three of us sometimes, will evoke nth but awkwardness and sadness now.

i remember the promises we had, the conversations about how LOTR rocked and HP books were better than the movies, how you preferred aragorn while i drooled over legolas.

my half blood prince is still with you, but i dont want it back. im afraid that once i get it back, everything we share will collapse.

im afraid of the day the new HP movie comes out. i wont know how to face you because i know you'll have a hard time facing me. but i want to go with you. i dont want us to end.

i have no idea how you're doing, and i want to sms you so much, but im afraid i'll cause more pain to you.

how long have i known you personally? 5, even 6 years? i dont remember, cos i have never tried to remember. all i knew was the happy future with you in my family.

i was distracted, i distracted myself. now i remember to think of you.