im in a super foul mood now.

because my martix vcd refuses to play.

plus im too tired to go out to jog.

need i mention that i failed the math test horribly?

today is a super lucky day!!

i didnt study kanji, but those that came out were pretty easy!
the rest was super chim but i felt ok aft that.

after that i met gabriel, jeaness and aline!!! xD wah very long never see them liao (:

kept my mum waiting though...SORRY MUMMY!

then at night mummy accompanied me to optical 88!!! wahahaha that's like the luckiest thing today! firstly, we were almost sure that the promotion would be over. but WALA! there was even a banner put up! and then, my mum say buy only if it's at $200. and WALA! it's EXACTLY $200!! im so lucky today!!!

HAVENT FINISH!!

then hor then hor!! cos jasmin didnt get her horoscope one mah..so at first i chinchye chinchye look at capricorn first. THEN HOR, THE BLACK AND WHITE ONES WERE NICE!! even my mum (who has this deep-seated prejudice against glasses) thinks they're nice. i tried jasmin's pair too but then mum says i should get a different pair ^ ^

THEN HOR! the optician gave me a box of sample solution! wah i 赚到了 lor!

HAVENT FINISH HAVENT FINISH!!!

after that we went to petrol station, then my mum forgot to pull handbrake so the car moved a lil. and cos she was already off the car, I PULLED THE HANDBRAKE!!! not just once! i pushed and pulled it again cos the attendant needed to move the car back into position.

now the lucky abt this is that i've been RESISTING THE TEMPTATION to TOUCH THAT HANDBRAKE since i was young. but i never dared. SO, im super lucky today!!!!!!

oh and i saw very nice blue whale videos today so im additionally happy!

and! i did conditioning at home! i realised i can do SEAL WALK in my room HOW COOL IS THAT!? yep. and then i had a karaoke session in my room after that.

HAHAHA. THUS MY HAPPY-LUCKY-SWEATY DAY!

i havent studied for the math test tmr, but heck! ^ ^

http://www.oceanlight.com/html/blue_whale.html

nice blue whale pictures!!

haiyo think you SO SMART to disable rigth-click HOR?

you know sth called PRINTSCREEN? -smug- dun worry i wont use it for anything but my own personal pleasure.

now i got a collection of 6 flukes! xD

training was good today!

fatty wasnt there till the last 15 mins, but it was a pretty good trng still. even though my head was throbbing quite a bit after rounds.

the exhilaration from the backsomers were heavenly! and it felt pretty good yelling at the juniors hehehe ^^

when teo came back, he made our eyes pop when he did the breakdance move where you balance on one hand and bend sideways. woowee! (er, that was an attempt to spell a whistle)

he helped me try too! wa siao i didnt even know where he was pulling my legs to; i only felt him bending them over me. hahah so i got him to teach me how to practise against the wall. lol i tried just now and my left hand can't take the weight, but my right was ok (x

hahah it'll be so funny if i could do it.

imagine this:

paul the blue whale walk into a room full of girls flirting and boys unbashedly flirting back, and does that move (hmm maybe jia knows the name), and all the boys either go green in jealousy or white in utter shame, and all the girls will come and be friends with me! ha!

ok. fine that sounds so lesbian.

how about this:
paul the blue whale walk into a room full of girls flirting and boys unbashedly flirting back, and does that move (hmm maybe jia knows the name), and all the girls either go green in jealousy or white in utter shame, and all the boys will come and be friends with me! ha!

hmm it sounds wrong too!

NEVER MIND.

anyway, i wanted to perfect handstand walk also, but aiya, i never put my heart into it.
so it's pretty impossible la.

but still, everyone will come make friends with me cos im a Balaenoptera musculus! xD

the last lesson with 龚老师 was plain sad.

first we stopped her outside the classroom cos they were still writing stuff and hiding themselves behind the board. we resorted to singing and joking with her in order to entertain her (:

then when she got in, there was a very slipshod surprise. weli, anzie and wanxin jumped out from behind the boards and inside the cupboards. but of course, it was deliberate.

then she gave out the last piece of work she'll mark for us, and i was slightly disappointed because i did not do well. but aside from that, she gave us her last advice.

then, after the 'performance' by 贞子 and 狂, we launched into yongzhu's powerpoint for 龚老师! thanks zhuzhu for the wonderful ppt!! i was trying to push back my tears, but when cherie started wiping her eyes i couldnt stand it anymore.

then we gave her the beautiful book of memories and the present.

after that 龚老师 said thankyou, and she gave us her email and phone number, and i could see her trying very hard to control her tears. she said her principle is to never cry in front of her students.

shihua said the moment she stepped outside, she started crying.

after that it was lunch, but quite a few stayed back to cry some more. ms chun came in to tell us sth, and according to jess, she was super shocked when she saw all of us crying and tried unsuccessfully to cheer some of us up.

i know there's no point to cry.

i mean, it doesnt make sense.

but still, it's just so miserable to know that you'll never have another lesson with her again.

我好想念你哦，龚老师...

my mood became better today! (because of jess too!)

i salvaged my ugly ss booklet by...a slip of tribune cover-page! hehe. it looked so much better. but anyway, the moment i gave it to hongchuan, i became happy!

my spirits were more or less dampened by math, but after that i had a wonderful lunch (i love mum!).

i shall slack a lil now, even though i have not mugged geog nor jap nor math.

that was so scary.

the printing turned out all blue the first time and i felt so shitted.

i had just given up on chemistry assignment.

i have to go do graphs later.

my life is so screwed and i never felt so lost and lonely in the dark room. no for a long time.

ohmytian. i need a break desperately.

ok, that's the last straw.

you belittle me so much im hurt like shit.

i gave up so much for you (though it was willingly) and i get nothing in return.

all you had given me was so half-hearted.

i had to fantasize to make myself feel better. i had to console myself time and again.

but that was the last straw.

the virtual and the real.

difference is that one can be captured on a screen while the other cannot.

IM BECOMING SICK.

im so pissed with myself.

the headache won't go away!!

i did horribly for chem prac!! and i didnt get to jump tramp! and teo squeezed my fats and told me my abs are insufficient (uh sth along those lines).

AND I JUST RUINED THREE PIECES OF PAPER PRINTING MY PEETEES.
AFF-YOO-SEA-KAY! i hate it when i do that!!!!

i ate alot for dinner. two plates of fried rice! then drank the flu drink my mum made. i <3 my mum!

k. im freakin' pissed at everything now. dang it.

i forgot to mention abt ms kong ):

my chinese teacher, who is also the discipline mistress, IS LEAVING SCHOOL.

im SAD.

she's a very very very very nice teacher. funny, creative, responsible. some pple say she's biased but whatever. her lessons are easy to absorb and pay attention to. she tries to understand us and helps to lighten our load.

pls lor, she even delayed breaking the news to us so that our 情绪 would not get affected.

haiii. i must jiayou for my chinese. YES PAUL.

my backsomer is FINALLY fixed.

omg. for the first time in weeks. the free flight and the seamless coordination with the trampoline.

oh my. all my stress has disappeared for the day.

thankyou mrteo! <3

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart

if you don't, you might break theirs.



Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so
afraid of losing what you already had with that person?



Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?


Too many of us stay walled up
because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.


Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?


We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what
others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger


Life is all about
risks
and it requires
you to
JUMP

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or
could have had.


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hmmm. firstly, if i don't tell them, i might break their hearts? then they come and tell me first la! of course you dun want yourself to heartbreak rite.

i agree with the maroon point. im afraid of losing what i have now. so, i'd rather shuddup and enjoy what is already there.

haha random email from my friend. (: thanks anyway!

omg i must be the most STUPID and IRRESPONSIBLE captain EVER in gym history.

i actually thought that CCA orientation is in 2007! OMG. i wanna kill myself. first leadership camp, now this. OMG jessica and claire, PLS SCOLD ME AND KICK ME OR STH SO I DUNT FEEL SO BAD.

ok. I PROMISE THAT I'LL CONSTRUCT THE NOTICEBOARD DECO IN ONE OR TWO BIG PIECES SO ALL YALL HAVE TO DO IS STICK IT UP. AND I'LL WORK ON THE STICKERS EXTRA EARLY.

OMG IM SO SORRY.

-bangs myself against the wall-

ARGHHHH I SUCK. I TOLD YOU I CANT DO IT.

just as xiaxue posted her entry about croc shoes, my dad got his pair.

oof. and guess what? he wore them with jeans! just as xiaxue had mentioned.

hahahah i reacted pretty violently when i saw them, so he was very self-conscious the whole time.

hur. they do look horrible. but (like everyone) he says they're comfy.

but i think if i wore them, the sweat from my feet would pool up inside. -guffaws-

me jess and hua when to play in the rain today during rs!!!

first, we just went out to enjoy the rainy air.

then we put out our hands to play with the water.

then we started splashing at each other!!!! THEN IT WENT OUT OF CONTROL!!!!

we went back to class with our pinafore front wet.

then we decided to CONTINUE with our pe shirts and shorts.

AND THEN we decided to RUN INTO THE RAIN!
we kicked water at each other! cartwheeled! stayed out for about 10 seconds and ran to shelter.

THEN WE WENT AGAIN!!!!

ROFL!!!

then we went up, caught our breath, AND STARTED WATER WAR AGAIN!




HAHAHAHAHAHAH SO FUNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!

we were so wet!! my underwear was wet too HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

me and jess went thru geog lesson after that barefoot ROFL!!

hurhurhurhurhur!!!!!!


thankyou hua and jess! it was the best fun i'd had in ages!

http://www.bananaguard-uk.com/?gclid=CMO_ufqVrYcCFRyCTAodBgw_7w

jess would love this. xD

http://today.reuters.com/news/articlenews.aspx?type=oddlyenoughnews&storyID=2006-09-12T123839Z_01_SYD136044_RTRUKOC_0_US-AUSTRALIA-IRWIN.xml

how sad.

the last day of the holidays.

started on my ss peetee at last.

gonna start mugging philo and math.

i cant wait for dec hols.

but then... there's this dread that follows. im ashamed.

boiling inside and shivering outside.

i read my 12th comic book on the bed, then i remembered the peetees still incomplete, the concept map to be drawn out on my own.

then i saw the 2 books on the floor where i stacked my peetee handouts and rs file. i remind myself to return them on monday. i realised that you'll probably forget. so i smsed you.

then i went on to think of school, how the teachers had mercilessly piled handout after handout, worksheet after worksheet on our desks, giving them out like deforestation was no serious problem at all. how you betrayed me again and again, from the slightest things to the greatest things, and how i eventually learnt to look away and busy myself with other things or people whenever you did those things.

how you seem to overlook the fact that it's the holidays and i deserve a rest. and how i am letting myself down by postponing my mugging day after day until it's already the end of the holidays. how tiring it is to choose between your expectations, my expectations, and my future, or my youth, my mostly-gone-childhood and my happiness. how you don't understand that a certain extent of rudeness is a form of communication that works fine with her and me.

how you taunt at me even though i know you are not taunting. how i hate that i allow myself to continue wallowing in self-pity.

how we are really gone. how it hurts me that you seem to forget the promise, even though i know you're just too busy to remember and don't blame you.

how i hate the way you've become, the tone of your voice, the words you choose.

how much i hurt from the way things turn out among us.

how i am so lucky yet so sad at everything.

how ungrateful i am.

how i can never break the habit.

how the things i am proud of gradually crumble one by one until i'm left to pick up the pieces and miserably try to glue them together.

how it can only be a dream to enter your world, be part of your world.

i've wasted another half an hour on this. but i shall continue to waste my time away.

how i wish you would suddenly remember, pop me an email saying you read this entry and telling me to call on you so that you can console me, give me support.

http://video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=c9c61c89812db3c95d8c6d11de8801d3.807381&cache=1
(html is conky so i cant post it here.)

something new on my wishlist! yes.

"I shall practise civil governance and order everyone around.

Waiter, one round please!
-laughs-"

--
Cold man Zhen Er.

you rawk my socks off!

my hair is cut. fringe is wierd (yes jia, you get the next laugh) lol.

training today was very slack! we played dog and bone, and some warrior game in which i nearly strangled jess (sorry!), and ended both of us with a painful spine (IM SORRYYYYYYY!!!!!)

then we had a very disgressed discussion abt next year's tcher's day.

ok. im in some kind of a mugging mood. i shall look for help on math FA.

切なさ　の　限り　まで　抱きしめても
いつまでも　一つ　には　なれなくて
優しさ　より　深い　場所　で触れ合う　のは　痛み　だけ
二人を　結んで　ください

僕ら　は　もう　夢　を　見ない
とまどい　ながら　手をとって
残酷な　夜明け　のほうへ
歩き出す

本当　の　言葉　は　きっと
本当　の　世界　の　どこか
僕ら　の　無口な　夜に　潜んでる
今も　きっと

should i cut my hair?

should i keep my hair?

im super uncomfortable with my flat hair now.
shit shit shit.
how?

Ah Cheng went to a bar in Hawaii to have some drinks. At the counter, he sat next to the famous Hollywood producer, Steven Spielberg, who was already ahead by a quart of alcohol. After a round of beer Ah Chen sensed that the famous producer was glaring at him.

Suddenly, in a flash Ah Cheng crashed down from his stool, felled by a vicious hook from the prucer. Picking himself up, he yelled, "What the hell was that for, aah?"

The producer ranted, "That's for the bombing of Pearl Harbour, you !!@#$ ! My father perished in that bombing!"

"I am not Japanese, you stupid nincompoop! I am a Chinese!"

"Yeah yeah yeah... Japanese, Burmese, Chinese, Vietnamese... you are all the same."

Regaining his composure, Ah Cheng took his seat and ordered a double from the bartender.

A few seconds later, the Chinese turned around and delivered a deadly snake fist to the producer, sending him flat to the floor.

"What was that for!?" exclaimed the producer.

"That's for the sinking of the TITANIC! I had ancestors on that ship, you know!" Ah Cheng replied.

"You ignorant chink! The TITANIC was sunk by an iceberg!"

"Yeah yeah yeah... Iceberg, Spielberg, Calrsberg... you all the same, lah!"