我一直希望能让你开怀大笑的人是我，只有我。

你不晓得，你多次和别人玩笑时，我都在你身后努力的撇开自己的注意力。

你应该，没有像我一样不舍。

你应该，不知道你那时所说的，让我心中一震，脑海中忽然闪烁一丝希望。

你应该，与我有着截然不同的想法。



应该是吧。


要平衡好我们的关系，需要很大的努力。

现在我实在没精力去思考你的想法，但却又不由得会去关切你的一思一动。


明天，得换个方式了。


the above is a practice for my qing jing zuo wen, so just ignore it.

im stressed. im stressed. im stressed. im stressed. im stressed.
but not as bad as the start of the week. =/

it's been a generally lousy week, except that single nice routine yesterday.

i mean, i sat on bird shit. how nice is that man.

to all ppl, sorry for my lack of socialness these few days, im really very tensed up. after next week, i promise i'll resume my passion.

OH YA. IM DAMN PISSED OK.

WHERE GOT MUST IMMEDIATELY CHANGE SEATS ONE!?

WHAT KINDA LOGIC IS THAT?

"I don't see the difference whether you change now, or change later."

"THEN ASK YOU TO SUDDENLY CHANGE STAFFROOM CAN OR NOT."

ok, tchers probably can, but we can't.

sheesh. i'll just make more the same level of noise i'm making now, so there.

he's so biased against me la. oh well, shiting said i'm biased against our geog tcher too, so maybe it's just retribution.

wah, i'm so scared.

it's such a horrible day.

i've not had such a bad hair day since i cut my hair. gosh im so irritated! but i got no time to cut!!! sheeeeshh.

homework is piling up like shit and im super annoyed. can't get conditional probability right, can't be bothered to read ss notes. can't seem to find the motivation to do my assessments.

shit, and tmr got p.e. it's a bit boring without rallies, and it's so shit-troublesome to bring clothes.

then got training. wahlau how to finish my work like that.

HORRIBLE.

im annoyed and irritable.

i predict that xiaxue's bf will dump her soon.

im her avid reader! but still, i can sense it...

update: even though they're having sex, y'know.. sheesh. bad example!

heeheehee. =D

你不开心的脸，仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算在靠近眼前，我们一样没交点
没有你的世界，就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你陪在身边，我的四季只剩下冬天
悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演，静下来的世界
有我的思念，也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见，寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
他住进我们之间，消耗着我和你的永远

你有没有听见，思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远，累了回头我就在你的身边

yeeha this skin is nice (:

plus it was the skin of the day on my BIRTHDAY :D

i know, mah.lau's sort of extra down there, but heck. i finally figured out how to make the bkgrnd transparent so it isnt so bad xD feed it a banana! it's so cute :D

siao leh.

apparently not every of them is like gabu. nice, sweet gabu. dear me, i was so tempted to #%$!$ a lil.


it's a tiring day. sch was funny; but somehow my <3 was aching the whole day.
and QA. OH MY FREAK I HATE QA FOREVER. why the hell would i give shit abt what cations and anions are there in solution X!!?!?

but i tink if i were in ri, and ri gym, i will just collapse under the stress and fatigue. their trng hours are like !?!?


durhhh. another day tmr...then another. i feel so dead.

FIVE DAYS!!

Looking back i realise that i've been real selfish.

It wasn't wrong for him to pursue his dreams. He didn't insist that mum stays back too.


It was me, forgetting that the world doesn't revolve around me; forgetting that i've never really been refused of anything in my life; forgetting that i was the one who agreed on the plan too.


i will not insist, or sulk, or complain anymore.


it feels like shit, but i shall not make it worse for everyone by making unreasonable requests.


i've already lost so many things; this pain doesn't really add much to the existing one, no?

i just need to focus elsewhere.



not that i have many "somewhere else"s to focus on.

our lsl project is so fun! but they dunt want us for anything except deco.

and i just found out ytd that they aren't really that appreciative of our efforts on the deco too.

sad.

still, we enjoy it (: i dunt want it to end!

for some reason(s), im actually wishing that the weekend would pass faster xD

yes, my rs is currently all bore, cle + philo reflections are all chore and i havent written a single chem reflection (i havent even found my exercise books yet!)

BUT

lessons now make me smile/laugh, and generally be in a good mood almost the whole time.

AND

NINE DAYS, EVERYONE!

i miss gonglaoshi ):

big thanks to cherie + jas + hua for the wonderful video =D I WANT A COPY!!

anyway, i saw ms tina chung outside sch today! and hua's right; she's not teaching anymore =/ she's studying full-time! masters (maybe even phd) degree for lit leh! i mean, like capitalised, bolded, underlined, italised, enlarged:


LIT.

she must really like it.

haha they've got so many animals at bunnyheroes labs now!

and that monkey ROFL it's so like meeeee :DDD

anyway, u're supposed to be able to feed it a banana, but since it's not as fun as making it swing here & there (also because i cant be bothered to change my layout just to fit the whole thing in), so hehe whatever xD


yep.. the library ppl moved our deco around..and the willows are nowhere to be seen.. ): but well, it's ok, paul, it's ok.

i musn't.

i mean, look, jessica's been close to me, and see what happened!?

she's breaking rules everywhere.


this is NOT GOOD.


just stay back and stop influencing ppl.

least of all you.

i changed so fast im almost ashamed of myself.

i tink bj is rite. it's just a phase im going thru.

cos if it's not, i wouldn't have missed you, when you were right under my nose for so long.

i mean, like literally?

it's unsettling, it's depressing. this time, it's worse cos i can't even bear to get too close.

but still, seeing your delight is addictive.