Innocence - Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

necklace (: not practical for sb who doesnt wear necklaces. but it's SO pretteh.

hahaha i thought it was very dumb when i saw meili's :P sorry lah! your spider really very ugly xD

my wildcat is SO PRETTEH. :D but then again, maybe it doesnt belong to me!!!!! cause i'm not solitary, whatever it means. hahahah. AND I WHERE GOT MODEST -.- purrlease.

T_T haha i made shhting's one change form! > <

whatever. it's so PRETTEH. esp it's shadow (x but it's got a dumb name.

weekends are no good.


no good, no good.


too much time to hu si luan xiang. blehh. i'm supposed to be soaking in my happiness.



okay, paul, don't think so much la!

it's a good day! (:

since very long :D



hahahaha huo zhe zhen hao.


xian zai de yi qie yi qie dou HAO BANG O!!!



haha i didn't mention about the "change" in seating arrangement.

nor did i mention that less than 10 people changed places -.-

but anyway, shhting is sitting beside me now! xD how fun ((:


and charlotte! she's still being called by our yam pau tcher... CHARLOTTE! hang in there!


HAHAHA my life totally rocks now can. ^^ everything is so marvelous.



mood:

HAHAHAAHHAHAHA


TWO POINT SICKO FOUR IS OVER!!!!!!!!!


muahahahaha i got my beloved C. and im super surprised to know that i missed a B by only SIX seconds! HAHAHAHAH so funny! i can't believe it!

THANKS TO EVERYBODY WHO CHEERED FOR ME (though i dao-ed you when i was running) and those who encouraged me in the earlier part of the day!

AND LEEQI WHO GAVE ME A SUPER INSPIRING PEP TALK BEFORE THE RUN! <3



AND ESP HUA AND SARAH WHO CAME DOWN SPECIALLY! <333

and everyone, someway or another :D




me jess sher shin fiona flo went to far east to celebrate! (((: on the way we met these two koreans who asked us for directions in broken english! haha so funny.


anyway, me and shin are SO COMPATIBLE :D


kayy, i'm going to EAT MY BELOVED TOMYAM NOODLES NOW HAHAHAHA.


it's a near-perfect day.



p/s: dear two-point-sicko-four, for your information, i still hate you.

RS!!!!


T_T

i'm feeling super guilty for getting distracted by e-mo and s.h.e )x


blehh the words i'm typing are squirming! creepy. eee and i can't highlight them! SO SCARY what did i do hmm.

eeeeeeee. cannot concentrate la!!! RS is fun but presentations are so troublesome ):


ok, will be over soon. chill paul. tmr is a good day!

well, hopefully.


mood:

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

I'M SWEPT UP IN MY S.H.E CRAZE AGAIN! OMGOSH I'M BLABBERING AND MY HEART'S BEATING SO FAST I THINK MY LIFE TOTALLY ROCKS NOW WOOOOTS I LOVE MY LIFE WAHAHAHAHAHA.

AWWWWWWWWWWW.....!


OMGOSH MEILI I LOVE YOU!!!

mood:

wahh my tagboard suddenly become so alive can. :D
"thank you thank you you're far too kind"

phoo.


friday was a rather uneventful day. other than steamed egg. [in memory of the egg i broke ):]

i slept a total of 14 hours from ytd to today :DDD after reaching home at 5+ and taking a shower, i went to bed at 6 and knocked out till my dad came home at 9 :)))

then i had a wonderful dinner of pineapple rice! wahh it rawks, go buy dancing chef's pineapple rice mix!!!
hmm but then again, you'll need an extra dollop of FATHERLY LOVE to get that taste xD

then at 10, i went back to sleep :DDDDDD i woke up only at 9 this morning!


wahahaha im so proud of myself! (:

not to mention i actually managed to do the remaining of trigo assignment one on my own.



OH YES.

I BLOODY HATE ANTS.

CURSE THEM!!!! ANTSSSSSSSS SUCKKKKKKKKK LIKE HELL!!!!! AHHHHHHHH.

**no relation to our little ann-t (:**

OMGOSH i'm so sorry CO ppl!!!! T_T
all the trauma, trouble, & tau-geh (just wanted to make it alliterate).
SO SORRY!!!!!!!!!! )x

had a sports leader meeting today. now i know it's not just me suffering (: it always seems less bleak when you know there others fighting tgt with you :D anyway, though you won't see this, jiayou cheryl! you can always come find me and we can rant to each other ^ ^

yesyes i still havent blogged abt comp. hahaha no time la! i need to do:

1. jap hmwk / today, like now.
2. ss article review / tmr!!!!
3. math assignment / mon
4. rs presentation / tues

and all the random work i havent been able to catch up and do... thankfully r formulae is easy enough. well, at least its LOOKS easy for the first few questions...... I DON'T WANT ANOTHER SHIT MARK FOR MATH!! (:

haha but i don't feel stressed! :D i'm so damn motivated can ^ ^ i mean, i feel like i've gotten back the good mood already xD and my mum's coming back with the baby in a month's time! and everything, y'know. it's like i'm all set to RUSH TO MY ACADEMIC GOALS (x and other goals too xD

-biggrin-

hahahahahahaha what a wonderful world i'm in xDDDDDDDD

woots! <3

**gonna photo-blog soon!

summary: today was a whole day fuul of different emotions. i smiled, grinned, cried, sobbed, frowned, etc etc. was encouraged, stressed, angered and thus motivated, touched, disappointed, excited, blahblah.

so damn tired. but happy (:


that thing you do to me!!!!

hey everyone,


THANKS for all the encouragement, and affirmation, and love.

yep, i feel super-duper loved.



thank you jess, claire, for all the help you've given me, it means lots to me.

thank you juniors, for your faith in me, and your love. and thank you mel too, for coming down with them to my class early in the morn today (:

thank you shin, sher, jess, stace, for your love too.

thank you wanchee, and my-sec-2-phy-tcher, and teo, and of course all the gymmers.

thank you manda, hua, shhting, sarah, jas. haha sorry for scaring yall yesterday.

and thank you oce, haha i know you love me too (:


gosh i don't deserve all this love.

yes yes i hear jess scolding me already.

whatever it is, i will jiayou de (:


i promise.

dear juniors, the following post is not a good example i should set. yes, i know i don't care, but i must first say that if you choose to read the following words, pls do not learn from me. i'm not a good captain. to the sec 4 gymmers, i'm sorry but i'm trying to manage all these. i won't neglect my duties because of this, i promise.

it'll be the death of me.




Is this how a captain should look like?

YES. THERE'S NO FRIGGIN PROBLEM WITH MY HAIR, WTH.

"N-no..."


You are the captain, do you think it's right?"

YOU THINK I LOVE BEING THE CAPTAIN!? THINK I SO FREE AH! THINK I GOT SO MANY EXCESS BRAIN CELLS TO WASTE ON ALL THESE THINGS THAT I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO DO BUT I DO BECAUSE THEY CHOSE TO BELIEVE IN ME?

"No..."


Please go and do something to it.

I'M SO FUCKING STRESSED ALREADY I'M SUPPOSED TO BE RELAXED AND HAPPY CAN YOU ALL STOP MAKING ME BREAK.

"Yes.."


龚老师…我好难受哦。可不可以帮我骂她们啊？



that was the last straw.

let's just say i broke down. i broke down, OKAY!? I WAS SOBBING LIKE A PATHETIC FOOL OUTSIDE THE CLASSROOM, ARE YOU ALL HAPPY NOW!?


it totally RUINED my day. it was supposed to be A HAPPY DAY.


BUT NO! IT HAD TO BE RUINED. EVEN THE HAPPIEST THINGS MADE ME THINK TWICE.


YOU THINK BECAUSE I'M THE CAPTAIN MEANS YOU CAN ANYHOW SUBJECT ME TO YOUR STANDARDS!? YOU THINK I SHOULD BE HAPPY I'M CAPTAIN, AND EXPECT THAT I WOULD BE DEVESTATED IF YOU TOOK THAT TITLE AWAY FROM ME, DON'T YOU?

WELL, BIG FAT NO.

I'M NOT DOING THIS FOR YOUR SAKE, I'M DOING IT FOR THEM. NOT YOU, YOU LOUSY HYPOCRITES. OMFG IM SO DAMN ASSED SO DAMN PISSED.



AND YOU. OMGOSH WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU ALREADY SENT SO CANNOT CHANGE.

SO WHAT, CANNOT SEND AGAIN IS IT!

VERY HARD IS IT!??!?!



WHAT THE FUCK LA.



YES, I SAID FUCK. ARE YOU GOING TO STRIP ME OF MY POST BECAUSE I SAID A VULGARITY AND I'M NOT A GOOD EXAMPLE TO THE GIRLS?

WHATEVER, GO ON, I COULDN'T CARE LESS.



I THINK THE GIRLS WILL BE BETTER OFF WITH ANOTHER CAPTAIN ANYWAY.



OMYSHIT I'M SO DAMN ANGRY. I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE WTH. I SHALL CLOSE MYSELF FROM YOU. I HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE.

no time to worry, no time to stress, no time to relax, no time to freak out, no time to get nervous, no time to get prepared, no time to go into omygosh-im-dead-im-like-so-dead-can mode.

EVERYTHING is not relaxed.


oh gosh oh gosh. 2 more days and just some.





napfa's not fixed, leotards are too tight, number tags arent given out, teachers arent replying, math assignment not done.


i'm missing my sleep.


been gorging myself for these 2 days.

pimple outbreak on my back.



feet are a lil overworked.



ohnoohno im really freaking out now.

diediediedie.

ONE DAY OF EMPTINESS! x(


tmr, must, must, ok?

与其说是人家对我的期望，不如说是自己对自己的期望。


说不想跳得好，是骗人的。



去年，跳不好，有借口。



今年，没借口了。





明明心里就知道很难再创奇迹，我还抱有希望。



看啦！都不知道要用什么态度面对了。

PINK easter egg.


PINK hello panda.



the easter egg was just a bout of madness. but the hello panda. i can't believe it. was at moelc today, and wanted to buy sth to munch.

immediately, i thought "PINK hello panda!"
xD


on hindsight, maybe it was cos chocolate would give me phlegm.



maybe.

今天，应该是我恢复好心情的一天。

是很开心，很快乐。心情当然也比上星期的后段好多了。



可是，好像还是少了什么。


不，应该是说，多了些什么，结果少了什么。

也许只是自己的心理作用。应该是吧。



希望是吧。



今天，连我可爱的 steam egg 也好似少了什么乐趣。

不过，明天应该会更好吧。


希望如此。



一定要哦。

this cough is making me get abs -.-

FRIGGIN ANNOYING.

esp when there's no phlegm and it's just an itch in the throat and its SO IRRITATING.



comp is in 11 days. 3 more trngs. im not ready. not ready. not ready. this is not good.




rahhh i haven't fully returned to my good mood.

this chair is not just comfy, it makes one feel sexy too.

that's right, paul.

think of the happy times. don't dwell on the unhappy things.

you've enjoyed the 3 weeks of happiness and you're not going to revert back to emo-ing.



笑一笑, 没什么大不了.



that's the spirit man! 打起精神来!

it really sucks.



if i blame you, i feel guilty for not meeting your expectations.

if i blame myself, i feel like i got no life.




i got no arguments; i've got nothing to defend myself with. yes, i've been slacking a lot these few weeks. and yes i did shit for my test today.


but these were like one of the happiest 3 weeks i've ever had since the day i made my choice.


you think i wanted it to be so? you think i want to rush things last minute, and do shit for tests?




WHATEVER. gosh im so SHITTED. WHAT A LOUSY DAY. wahlau it hurts like shit.




and i realised it's not just me feeling the feelings im feeling. that sucks too.


OMYGOSH WHERE IS MY HAPPINESS.

i thought it was still there just 10 mins ago.


my gosh can you all stop doing all these things to me? i'm supposed to be HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

haii. today was such a dampening on my good mood.


OMGOSH IM DEVESTATED.





i musn't think of it anymore. think of happy things paul.

think of monday!


yep! just to mention, TARBET CHEERLEADING GOT 3RD! well done babes! all of them are like lobsters now. XIN KU LE!

best sports fest?
yeah, in a sense xD

BUT i've become the class joke because of that! grr. (I EMPHASISE TO MY CLASSMATES: PLS DON'T SPREAD OUT OF CLASS OR I WILL DIE.)


nvm, it's a happy thing (: such a happy thing.

haha special thanks go to jiaa :D



oh ya. number 23 was below my expectations. if you wanna see jim carrey's nice abs and his COOLIOS tattoos, go ahead. if not, just come and ask me, and i can tell u the whole story in 5 mins.



the bad mood won't last, i hope.

i think it wouldn't (: