it really sucks.



if i blame you, i feel guilty for not meeting your expectations.

if i blame myself, i feel like i got no life.




i got no arguments; i've got nothing to defend myself with. yes, i've been slacking a lot these few weeks. and yes i did shit for my test today.


but these were like one of the happiest 3 weeks i've ever had since the day i made my choice.


you think i wanted it to be so? you think i want to rush things last minute, and do shit for tests?




WHATEVER. gosh im so SHITTED. WHAT A LOUSY DAY. wahlau it hurts like shit.




and i realised it's not just me feeling the feelings im feeling. that sucks too.


OMYGOSH WHERE IS MY HAPPINESS.

i thought it was still there just 10 mins ago.


my gosh can you all stop doing all these things to me? i'm supposed to be HAPPY RIGHT NOW.