sorry LA!!


alamak, didnt have the mood nor time to blog these days.


hahahahahah.

wednesday morning and early afternoon were good.
wednesday afternoon and late afternoon and early evening were SHIT TIRING.

shucks.


anyway, i had been dying in my moodswings; alone, pathetic, sad and deprived at home. only 6 days have passed and i'm already dying.

i dont like holidays.


BUT, because i got lots of catching up to do with everything, i shall bear with it!

besides.

i've got nice things to keep me sane (:



i can stay happy if i choose to. :D

so, everyone, ENJOY YOUR HOLS if you haven't already started doing so!


LOVE,
the highly energetic and bright student :D

BIG THANK YOU to:

chong!
steph!
kelly!
dayna!


for staying back to help me with the setup today. i think i would have died without you guys.


AND.


THANK YOU KELLY.
for embarrassing me and jessica xD

HAHAHAHA I POPPED THE QUESTION!!!!


i was so nervous and proud of myself that i didnt really register part of the answer though.

STILL, i got the gist of it!




HAHAHA. I'M SO DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF.


GOSH. i salute my own courage.



hur the holidays won't so un-high after all, i think.

- the miracle we had created can be created no more; i alone, after all feels different.
- the one who changed my life totally since sec 1; i think i'll miss you terribly next year.
- as the seconds tick away, i may be more inclined to take drastic measures.
- thank you for your support, your love, your LAUGHTER.
- though you suck, i still am grateful to you for bringing me this opportunity.
- boxers of course wear as underwear right! wear as shorts then i buy boxers for what! and im so addicted to them!
- am i too sticky? i dunno, do i annoy joyce when i stick to her? do i irritate shihua when i go uh...violate her? shucks, i really don't know. haha am i thinking too much?
- openhouse ah openhouse, 8 hours in sch. -.- thank goodness for jess.
- report slip ah report slip, vaporise into cologne.
- options ah options, pls dunt let too many ppl outbid me for everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

JOYCE!!! :D




it's a wonderful day, and i'm so tired now.


i hope spm will be fun x)

HAHAHAHAHA.


FIVE is ZE NUMBER!




HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i love my life (:



AND! 7 more hours! xDDD

i have submitted my options.


and i did not put any $ into THAT. hahaha i realised that the cons outweigh the pros too much.



HAHAHA and hor, i bid for one i thought i'll never bid for. LOL just cos my dad say it's useful. so oh well :D


i will NOT regret it because...there are other ways (:




lol i'm so amused by myself :/

hahaha training was pretty good today!


haha i've got a strained neck, an a bruised ball of foot (hahahaha football xD).


the morning's kbox was super funny also.





i can't wait for monday! and it's not just the usual reason! xD

没有安全感。


i knew it, i knew it. you're too attractive.

TORN.



omygosh this time it's really the yeses and noes screaming in my head.



T_T haiii how. i think... the best solution is to bid a little on it...


sigh.



and then hor. THAT thing is making me feel very dotdotdot too. i really don't want, but i can't don't want because.



AND i've never scored so badly in my life.






thank goodness for you. i know, everyone thinks i'm just being all silly and dumb, but this really gives me strength and distracts me from all the stress and unhappiness.


thank goodness.

hah.



i look like a nb.

when the complexity of reality revisits me.

my heart, omgosh.







the things you did, oh my dear.

BOOM - S.H.E

boom boom boom

不像我这不像我
擦枪走火天摇地动
前所未有左边胸口
心跳声轰隆隆

整个世界突然浓缩
只剩下你的笑容
爱来得空前绝后
深呼吸再呼吸

不管要跟谁对不起
不管要受多少委屈
很奇怪只要见到你就好快乐

忍住哭忍住笑忍不住爱
心里有一条河洪水泛滥
爱情把所有的原则都打败
boom boom boom boom boom

忍住哭忍住笑忍不住爱
我的心会不会跳得太快
爱到来不及想应该不应该
boom boom boom boom boom

心里藏了一个按钮
四目相对全面暴动
我似乎和你见过
怎么了我不懂

蒙上眼睛捂耳朵
怎么阻止我也没用
我就是想要爱你
没出息没关系

boom boom boom

oh 你眼神你手心你的呼吸
一切都仿佛为我而设计
这是天意所以不可能去抗拒

boom boom boom boom
我的心你的心一样频率
都说爱要小心怎么小心
我的船就这样翻在你眼睛里

boom boom boom boom





paul loves this song (((x i wonder why...

wow.


i never knew the wonders of deviantart xD


now i've got a whole folder of LOVE-ly pics (((x


<3! although!

sheesh what's wrong with blogger lah! -.- i cant access my template!


kayy whatever.




IT'S ONE FINE DAY TODAY xDD


thank you (: the pleasant feelings are so addictive. THANK YOU. goodness i didnt even expect it them. :D gosh <3333


you. you. you.

YOU!!!!!


haha i going keesiao alr.




kayy What I've Done is SUPER can. touched. i must buy i dunt care :D



sighhh. xing fu (:

i can't #!@$^@%ing post a video.

but pls go watch: What I've Done - Linkin Park

OCE I LOVE YOU TO BITS WOOOTS YEAH MAN WHAT ELSE DO I SAY HMM MY LOVE FOR YOU IS BEYOND WORDS IN CAPITAL LETTERS AND BOLDED FONT BUT WELL YOU ASKED FOR IT.



training felt different.


it was good, yes, but...different.


shrugs. im caught in my moodswings again pui. (SEE OCE NOW IM LIKE IN LOVE WITH THE WORD PUI)

hahahaha im so crazy.


to think i was cursing the bus for coming so slowly, and cursing the ppl who wanted to stop at some ulu stop. and to think i was so panicked that i wanted to cry.




and then?



I GO THERE AND WASTE ALL THE OPPORTUNITIES.




ok, it was actually very good already okay. i mean i saw that. and i really didnt know what to say at that point in time!!!! > <

aiya, like joyce said, i'm too greedy.



but it's really annoying when i think back and wanna kick myself for WASTING THAT CHANCE. AND THAT CHANCE. AND ALL THOSE CHANCES.


rahhh. if only i had gotten a place for the jog. then maybe i would be there earlier. then again, if if if if.


ahh whatever.


i must ZHI ZU. and learn from the lesson. mmm.

haha yeah i know i told you i wouldnt blog today, jia, BUT, felt guilty gluing myself to the couch and my eyes to the teevee, so. anyway, what did you say you wanted me to blog about?



DORGH. i had something to blog abt but i FORGOT. shitshitshit.


it's been an unexciting week.


well, maybe other than when oce came over (yes yes i love you to bits xD)

and today, wasnt so bad too ((((((: ahh the beauty of living.



BUT. there. is. something. missing.


HAIIII.

aiya, what a weird mix of emotions.



dunt even know whether im going sch tmr or not. RAHHHH. is it so hard to ***** my *****!?!?


rahh.

aha! i should call my mum.

moodswings are scary. hahaha.

i get upset over dumb stuff, then i remind myself of happy times and get all smiley again, and then sth else comes along to remind me of what i've not thought about for a couple of months because i've been too happy, then i force my self to think of the happy times plus the happy things coming soon, then i recover again.


my playlist has gone from happy songs to sad songs to the current mix of happy and sad songs.


i seriously find it funny.



now, with a runny nose, my mind is exploring all the sad things again. rahh annoying.



ok, i shall give myself to it and rant:



if you were here, maybe i could have done sth more for my ss peetee, and i most probably would be more hardworking than i am now. actually, i can always force myself to be hardworking. i know, i'm not putting in all my effort and this is the worse thing i can do, because i'll regret later. maybe it's a part of my subconscious making me not work my hardest. i'm really not an independant girl. maybe if it was you, my disappointment 2 weeks ago wouldnt stay. maybe if you were here, my recent jap accomplishment would make me even prouder of myself. it's not that the situation now is bad. but then again, it would be different, i think.

but then, you pinned your hopes on me. i know you don't want this either.

so, i shall try my best now.

i mean, even if i couldnt see your proud smile when i told you of my chi improvement, i could at least hear it.

that makes you happy, right?


so i should stop wallowing in self-pity, and motivate myself with you and my happy thoughts (:



wo yi ding ke yi de.

我好笨喔

short post b4 i go to sleep (:


ahh, i finally understand what i'm reading and doing for ss :D BIG thanks to shihua, joyce, xiner, meili, blaws, etc.

ESP shihua!!! ((: always so patient, esp the past few days cos i was very lost and confused abt almost everything. <33


hopefully, i'll do okay (: i mean, we all put in loads of effort. pls don't let it be like the peetee ):



oh and thanks jia for listening to me rant just b4 rs today (: heh. im ok now.

and jess for walking 'nonchalently' in the rain with me xDD pls dunt fall sick hor.




some things are really weird.
it irritates me, but i'm ashamed.


in any case, happy things are the ones worth remembering. :D on the whole, it's not really a bad day today, other than the couple of moodswings i had. (:

good luck for ss and eng tmr!
though i don't belive in luck... well, you can never be sure :D

心情漂亮就是心情漂亮。


听快乐的歌，很快乐。


听难过的歌，也莫名其妙的快乐。


现在应该是非常时期，我却整天沉浸在快乐中，一点stress 都没有。

ahahahahaha!
多么快乐喔！
活着真好！xD

mood: