my whole day was ruined because of ss ): first block somemore lehh!! ));

it's just so disappointing; i thought i could do it. but no, after reading i was so caught up by that dumb assumption i used in my intro, my thoughts were like they went through some blending machine. right after my intro, i panicked and i nearly broke down right there and then. but i only just managed to steel myself and continue to write. i couldnt change the assumption anymore cos it's just there already. i just had to keep harping on it!!! ARGH! so yes, it was the lousiest feeling. crapping on and on, not even knowing what the hell i was arguing about, trying to block out the urge to cry, feeling my hands sweating and freezing in the bloody air con room.

you may say, no la i don't even know whether i did okay or not, but:

BOTH SOURCES SUPPORT MY STAND LEH.


wth!? that's why my excitement turned totally into a nightmare.


i thought i could manage it, partly because you said i could improve, and partly cos the day before i was feeling so confident and clear about all the points.

all the effort i put just crashed down in that miserable one hour.

all the expectations...

i'm so sorry, i feel like some idiot. i dunno what i did wrong. perhaps, i was too stubborn about being for ft.

okay, but then again, it's over.

i won't know what i'll do or feel on monday; maybe i'll feel better if i rant to you and you tell me the usual things ppl say when sb does badly for a test. but now, it's over, and i shouldn't harp on it anymore. it didn't do me any good for the test so yeah.


let's talk about the happy things then!!


yesterday, then. it was goooooood. like omgggg. it was like, perfect? the way you did it?


today. man, first thing in the morning. i can't believe it man. this is like the perfect week (up till ss test, of course); coolness sia. it's getting so much more 灿烂; but then that's probably because i'm delusional la. ((:



after slogging through the rest of the day as the sky cried for me and i tried to focus in the lessons, finally school was over and me cherie and jasmin went out to binge! :D

ate pastamania. saw the rain-lookalike whom we saw when we went to sentosa for class gathering. turns out he smokes. kau all the good impression went down the drain the moment i saw that.

browsed thru mags in cheers, then went to taka to eat ice-cream and buy donuts (me la, they either too full or dunt like the donuts). YAY HAY i got 4 donuts in my fridge for me to binge slowly xD

THEN, THEY BROUGHT ME TO THE TOY SHOP. OMG I FELT LIKE A KID AGAIN, only that my bag was super heavy and my shoulder ached annoyingly. so cool la. THEN ART FRIEND where i planned to buy certain things but then no stock -.- nvm, next time go there and browse thru slowwwly (without my annoying bag)

[gosh this post is damn long.]


then we went back to sch to watch band's farewell thingy; touching leh! aiya, no strength to type more liao, so... photos!