tomorrow onwards will be a new life.


i don't want to write some oh-so-sad kinda goodbye entry, and i haven't been thinking much.


in any case, i've discovered that i remember things by emotion rather than event. it's like i can never remember anything clearly after about a few months, but when i try to recall, the feeling will come to me, instead of images.

and now i really miss some of these feelings.




like the coolest feeling of triumph when i manage to do my first backsomer, all by myself.



like the effect of someone's smile on me.




like the nice feeling of protecting somebody, whether that person felt it or not.



kind of dreading tomorrow, like i'm going to become somebody different again.


i wonder if my haircut was a omen. i shall get back my old hairstyle the next time :/